Right on the threshold of a new year...I am recommitting
myself to surrender. Seven years about I
surrendered the faulty, unfruitful actions that I tried over and over again to
no avail as far as weight loss was concerned.
I tried calorie counting clubs, pills, purchased every book
on diets there was...exercised and restricted, controlled myself into weight
loss and like a breaking dam, my self-willed remedy eventually broke...and
every food item that I had previously resisted was devoured in a feeding frenzy
that resulted in regaining lost weight plus an addition 5 to ten pounds.
Today, I am thankful to God for helping me to come to the
end of self...dropped illusion that I could "fix" myself with the
next diet, exercise program, etc...mine was a malady deeper than these surface
fixes....I needed God to highlight and help dig up and discard unhealthy
thinking and acting that was embedded in my value system. God was like and continues to be like
"Combofix"( a free, computer virus seek and destroy software) that
goes on a seek and destroy mission in my operating system...seeking and helping
me to destroy unhealthy thinking and doing that no longer serves me...the
thinking and acting that assure that I remained obese.
Today, by the Grace of God, I am well over one hundred
pounds lighter...and have been a healthy body size for almost four years...this
is a miracle. This blog is dedicated to
sharing my experience..what worked for me and how God performed this miracle
and continues to perform this miracle in my life one day at a time as I choose
life...even when I get off track, I ask for help and surrender to God's
wisdom...God's strengthening process....I overcome...I am victorious...one day
at a time...
